A no good very bad day...

That is what today was. I'm so glad that its over!

Why Gay Men Are Awesome!

I was thinking today about the relationships that I have had with men… I was thinking about this because this guy that I had a crush on my freshman year in high school turned out to be gay. I liked this guy more than the guy I was dating at the time. I actually secretly wished that I was dating him instead of my then boyfriend. I found out my freshman year of college that he was gay. I love gay men. In fact, the best relationships that I have ever had are with gay men. My soul mate is a gay man… Sometimes I wonder if there is something wrong with me. I find that when a guy is straight I am not as able to build a relationship with him. Its superficial and most of the time, there is either sexual tension or the relationship is totally based off of sex. With gay men, there is no sexual tension because neither of us wants to have sex with each other. That’s my favorite about relationships with gay men. It’s less complicated, more intimate... At least for me it is. Michael and I for example, have the perfect relationship. We love each other, we talk about everything, we like the same stuff, we have tons in common, we are honest with each other even when its not comfortable, and we’d rather be with each other than be apart. That’s what a soul mate is right? Michael is my gay soul mate.

Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be able to have a relationship with a straight man that comes close to my relationship with Michael. If he were straight I would marry him… Sometimes I wonder if he’s the perfect guy because he’s not a straight guy… I mean, straight guys only wanna sleep with you, gay men never want to sleep with you. They really actually do only wanna be your friend. I guess what I need to find is a straight man who is like Michael. Here’s to wishful thinking…


Love yall!
R