Advent

It is now my favorite time of year: Advent! I love Christmas! It’s the best time of year. The time of year when people are kind to each other, where they give to those in need, where they smile when they pass you on the street. I love Christmas. I love the Christmas markets. I went to a Christmas market today (Sunday) and walked around the rathaus (city hall) where they have a huge advent market. They have turned the windows into an advent calendar. What this means is that for each of the 24 days before Christmas a different numbered window will open revealing a picture of something Christmas related. YAY CHRISTMAS! Instead of coming home I am going to spend Christmas in Berlin with Michael. I can’t wait to see the Christmas markets in Berlin! This Christmas is going to be awesome! If I get a job as an FSO I might be able to be placed in Germany after a point. FSO btw is a Foreign Service officer.


I hope you all have a very merry Christmas! I will miss you! May your Christmas be merry, full of laughter, love and may it be bright! I really hope there is snow in Berlin! And maybe if God is feeling extra generous Nashville can get some snow too! I love you all! I’ll update more later in the week.


Love you all!

R

Don't read if you dont wanna hear me be lame.

I called Nick. It was good. Sometimes talking to him is good. It makes me feel like no matter where I am in the world one thing will always be normal and constant. I miss him. I miss us. It’s hard to move on from a relationship, from being in love with someone when you don’t feel like you are apart from them. Even across the ocean I still feel as though I am right there. Its almost like nothing has changed since I was staying with him my freshman year of high school. If it just takes time to move on from a relationship, why am I not over it? I figure there are two potential outcomes… We will either end up together, or I will find someone else. Those are really the only two out comes. I guess the problem is, we talked about maybe picking things back up when I get back… Nick said this. Who knows if that will happen. Who knows if this will be something I will want. We shall see.

I have been watching The Middle Man. I love that show! I’m so sad they canceled it. It was a great show. Download it off of Itunes. You won’t regret it. In fact you will thank me for having you do it. I met one of my friend’s girl friends this past weekend. I loved her. She is just like all of the girls that I hung out at Bmont. She is awesome! She is moving here in Jan. It will be cool to have someone here that I feel is like me. It would be cool to have a friend that I feel like really likes me. I mean my friends here like me, but I’m nobody’s favorite. Where as back home I am Elly’s favorite and Amy’s favorite! So I have people who love me more than anyone else. Which is a good feeling. It’s awesome to know that you are someone’s best friend, that they love you and want what’s best for you. I love that there are at least 2 people in the world who would rather be with me than other people. I know it sounds dumb but it’s the one thing that I feel the most insecure about. It just seems like everyone else has a person that loves being around them all the time. I wanna have someone that feels that way about me too.

Speaking of which, I really wish there was someone in my life. I miss being with Nick a lot. More than that, I miss being with someone. I miss having a boyfriend. I miss waking up next to someone; I miss spending time with someone who loves me. I miss being with someone. Which may be lame. But this blog is going to be lame. Because I have been feeling lonely. So that means that I have been feeling lame. Silly? Maybe, but its how I feel and you have chosen to read this, which means I can torture you with my problems.
Anyway, I love you all!